kuya bhong and che's wedding!!!
hohummm!! kasal na sila... wooohoooooooooooooooooooooo!!

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after almost 3 months of nothingness, my social life is back again.
had the most amazing time with my new colleagues: helmut, whew, we've got the same taste in music.. and more.. and more and more. k. kiss ( yep, i swear, thats her real surname..), rosa, the girl with the smile and fabio.. the nyc addict. first we went to mezcalitos, but the music was way too loud so we went to tgif instead.

met a certain waiter.. who was uhm, cute, i suppose. ok. so i flirted a bit tonight (he started it ha! wahehehe! oo noh! imagine that!) he asked for my number. (more details next time.. yeah you wish?!!!)

my shoe strap somehow broke, dont know how that happened, but they brought me home, ty helmut for that unforgettable car ride.. 5 people squeezed inside a tiny citroen. perfect way to end a delightful evening.

oh yeah. had 3 long island ice teas and i'm not proud about it. really im not, its been awhile since my last alc beverage and i feel numb. hope i can finally sleep better tonight.. if not then, i dont care.. i had a blast tonight. i love my colleagues.. (ok perhaps not 'some' of my bosses.. but thats alright, me still happy)

di ako lasing ha.

'i'm sick and tired of always being sick and tired.'~~~

reasons why i still wake up every morning:

my Faith
my family
my friends
my job
my coffee
my books
my music
this city
all the people i left behind
my breath
my bath
my joy
my pride
.
.
.
.
.

so many things to thank for... and i'm not going to let him put me down. not again. i had a life before him.

'I'm not sad for you
But I'm sad for all the time I had to waste
'Cause I learned the truth'

ei guys! thank you for the support.. was a walking zombie for awhile.. but im back to life. tee hee!
(shopping na tayo :P?)

betrayed.
used.
....

but im the one whos paranoid eh?

ARE YOU F*CKIN' HAPPY NOW????!!!!!

Now,don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know it's just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care
...yeah ,yeah,yeah


Could you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you're happy now,ohhh,ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You, took all there was to take
And left me with the an empty plate
And you don't care about it,yeah
And I,am giving up this game
And leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care
....yeah,yeah,yeah


Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now,ohhh,ohhhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?,ohh,ohh
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now? yah yah yah yah...

Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give something you ain't got
You can't run away from yourself
Yah yah yah...

I am alone here in my own mind.
There is no map
and there is no road.

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guess what, for one whole month i've got nothing to do but study study study.

by the way, i've got another job, cool eh?

nur du liebst dich...

sorry, i'm kinda low today.. see, i worked really hard for this to work out, and i've desperately tried to patch things up... guess what? i've failed again.

it's so hard, coz its just not him and me... i fell in love with his family as well.

but i wont let him break me this time. genug davon


i'm single again, but then, i'm still (w)hole.

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So scream you, out from behind the bitter ache
Heavy on the memory, you need most
still want love, ugly, smooth and delicate
not without affection, not alone

And instead of wishing that it would all get better
man you're seeing that you just get angrier

And it's good that I'm not angry
I just need to get over,
I'm not angry, anymore

Cry when you cry, run when you run
love when you love
represent the ashes
that you leave behind

how could you..



where are you now?

ron, don't hurt anymore.. enough of that.

i'll miss you

I'm waiting for him right now..
he's having this job interview and i'm here to somehow support him.
After the fight last night.
here we go again.

Cross your fingers, he badly needs this right now.
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i've got the sweetest nephew.


Love my Riel.

looks like im going to her concert alone. (yes!! i am a fan.. see what homesickness does to a hibernating bear like me). but im sure dad will accompany me.... yes, another fan.

ok. allow me to be mushy again for a moment...




Every room you flooded with sun
Every frustration you turned around

Nordic noble
Your gentle goodness
Your untamed pride
Life isn't fair

Danced the movie
In a silver room
From a golden balcony
We stood in awe of eternity

Helplessly sunken, drunken
And everything was allowed
Together in time-lapse
Midsummer-Night's Dream

Your confident stride
Your true poetry
Your serene dignity
Your unshakeable grace

Your destiny
You defied
You never betrayed
Your plan for happiness

I'm not leaving here
I've extended my stay
New time travel
Open world

I have you safe
Inside my soul
I'll carry you with me
Until the curtain falls
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another day.. another diet. hwek hwek hwek!

What Might Have Been

Somewhere, lost in the wind
I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow, we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be
A fool wondering what might have been

Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can't forget
Your mem'ry found me
Now I know where I belong

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I've got to know
What might have been
Let the lovin' decide, I can't run, I can't hide

I want you to know
My heart will show that I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I've searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might have been.

~What might have been

another day. same problems.

time for me to move on.

again.

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